I think this is it

Sooo... I've been wondering, for a long time now, about the future of this blog. I've been posting (irregularly lately) about things that I want to keep you updated on, and given you the idea that this is still going strong, but the truth is... that I think this blog has gone as far as it ever will. 

It's been a good run, and I've had a lot of fun with this. But I do admit, that the lack of interaction and attention caused the fun to fade. I shouldn't care that much, because I was writing this for me, but when you think you're actually going somewhere doing something you love, and then you don't, it's a bit of a mood killer. I appreciate the heck out of everyone who ever read my blog and left comments, who ever gave me such great words of encouragement to keep going with my dream of becoming a writer. I won't stop writing, but maybe blogging isn't the right alley for me. I have been considering starting a Finnish blog just for the fun of it, but I don't know if I will. 

I won't delete this blog. Not yet, anyway, not in a while. Maybe never :) Sometimes it'll be fun to read what I've been writing about. And who knows, maybe some day something really great happens and I just have to write about it in here. Of course I don't expect any of you to check in, but still. Oh, and I will continue on to read the blogs I've been reading so far. 

Thank you :) I'm off to do something else now. 

<3

iira

Plots

This year is almost ending, and I have a lot of plans for next year. They include traveling, working (but where, is the question here), possibly moving, and most importantly: writing. I am so close to being done with just planning my book. I've already started the writing process, but I know it's going to be a long and rocky road to the finish line. 

I am giving myself a year. I'm hoping to finish writing it within that time, but I don't want to push it. If needing more time means a better outcome, then I will take more time. But I do hope, that during 2014 I can offer my script to a publisher, or publish the book on my own. When it comes to writing, 2013 is going to be exciting, nerve-wrecking, inspiring, frustrating and thrilling. This project will also give me something to write about in here: I will keep you posted on how I am doing. I am not telling what my book is about, nor will I give anything else away. But I will get back to you. 

I saw a card recently, that would be perfect to give to me. Sometimes it's fun to find things like that :) 

It said:

"I can't wait for you to write a book, so I can finally know what you have been thinking about for the last few years."

Some of you will know :) 

Blogikirppis?

Mulla on kotona paljon turhaa kamaa, josta pitäisi päästä eroon. Turhaa siis minulle, ei välttis muille ;) Jos ette vielä arvannut, mitä haen takaa, niin mietin, että jos löytyy porukalta kiinnostusta, voisin pistää blogikirppiksen pystyyn! Näin säästyis sekin vaiva et roudais kamat normikirppikselle, eikä tarttis hei maksaa sitä typerää pöytämaksuakaan. 

Niille, jotka ei tiedä, niin blogikirppis meinaa sitä, että pistän kuvat myytävinä olevista tavaroista tänne (tai siis erilliseen blogiin, mutta käytännössä tänne), merkkaan hinnat ym. tiedot, ja voitte sitten kommentoida tarjouksenne jos kiinnostaa. 

Joten, jos tarpeeks ilmenee kiinnostusta, niin tällaista ois luvassa :)

Easybreezybeautiful or something

I've been in Finland for a week now, and it's gone by even faster than my time in the States. I am currently enjoying a mini vacation before going back to work next Tuesday, and after returning to this land of snow and coldness, I've spent my time seeing friends and trying to get my life together. I've only succeeded in the first. 

I am still jet lagged... I don't know why, but 6pm-8pm is a time period that's tough for me every day. I get so tired it's actually a miracle I manage to stay up and wait a bit longer before going to bed. All in all, getting adjusted to the time difference has been easier than I thought it would be. Happy for that :)

And now, to my topic at hand: make-up. My solution to... well, everything. I used to be the kind who couldn't even go to the grocery store without make-up on, but lately I'm thankful I've learned to loosen up a bit. But only a bit. I still apply foundation and powder and do my eyebrows before I leave my apartment. And guess what, I'm not even doing that just for me. I'm doing it for you, too. Trust me, I'm doing you a huge favor by making myself look at least a little like a human being. 

I've been using this for years. It's expensive in Finland; about 13 euros, but I think it's worth the money. For me, this jar lasts for a year. I'm not joking. A whole year. Just bought a new one yesterday!

At first I thought I'd do a post about what's in my make-up bag, but I didn't want to start taking pictures about all the items, cos there's a lot... so I have two pics. The one above, and this:

Covergirl Mascara isn't sold in Finland, unfortunately :( I have this one, and one more in stock. Got them from the US, and I'm so bummed we don't have Covergirl.. This mascara is great! 

If I'm feeling lazy, I'll just wear mascara (in addition to the must-have foundation, powder and eyebrows), but my everyday-make-up consists of those already listed + liquid eye liner, eye-shadow (usually light brown), and blush. If I feel like more, I'll add lip gloss or lipstick. And I'm done! I hate the process of putting on make-up, because it just takes an extra half hour away from my sleep. I love to sleep... :P But, what wouldn't a woman do to look presentable.. 

Ok, this is probably the worst make-up post in the history of make-up posts, but oh well, I'm tired and Mountain Dew just doesn't do it for me anymore... Or any drink with caffeine. What is up with me?! 

Also, I don't really have any ideas for posts right now, so if there's something you want me to write about, let me know. Otherwise, sorry for not writing much :( I really need to sort out my thoughts... Sooo much going on! 

Have a nice weekend everyone :)

Portland>Finland

I am back in Finland, and hopefully back to regular blogging from now on as well. I am sorry for the lack of writing recently. Let's just say, that I'm not your regular woman who can handle multitasking just like that. 

I arrived to Finland on Thursday... Well, Thursday or Friday. I landed around Midnight and I can't remember whether it was before or after. Anyways, I was 6-7 hours late, yay for that, and as I was landing, I did not feel any kind of fondness toward my homeland. The roads were white... And the snow blizzard hit the southern coast conveniently at the time of my arrival. What a welcome party for me, a person who hates winter -.-

Rocky Mountains!

The blizzard wasn't the reason I was late, though. Due to my flight schedule change from a non-stop flight from PDX to Amsterdam to PDX-Minneapolis-Amsterdam, I already had a longer return time, BUT, as it turned out, I was about to be traveling a bit longer still... To make a long story short, I got stuck in Minneapolis for 3 extra hours, because there was something wrong with our plane. They had another plane for us, and during the preparation of that one, Delta Airlines gave 50-dollar vouchers to all the passengers on that flight. I spent mine on a duty-free store, and headed for the purses (d'oh). All the handbags were a little out of my price range, but I did get myself something nice ;)

Guess -wallet, $45,00 from some duty-free store at Minneapolis/St.Paul Airport. Note the strap that comes off -this one will also work as a purse at parties :)) I love it!! Thanks, Delta! It pays off to be delayed ;)

So we finally took off from Minneapolis, and headed to Amsterdam. The flight time was an hour shorter than announced before, so I still had a slight chance of making it to my connection flight from Amsterdam to Helsinki. I landed at 1.05pm and the connection was at 1.55pm. I didn't make it :( I was at the gate at 1.30pm, but they wouldn't let me board, because my luggage was sure not to make it to the flight, and I wasn't allowed to fly without it. So they rebooked me, and I had another 6 hours to wait at Schiphol Airport... Oh happy days. Jet lagged, and all. I got a 10-euro food voucher, a phone call voucher and a 50euro discount from my next flight, that's valid for two years.. So yeah, I wasn't too pissed ;)

Minneapolis!

So... now my trip's over :( I cannot even describe how amazing these last three months have been. I truly lucked out with my job, host family and I made a lot of incredible new friends. I had a blast. Non-stop. I'm so so so very happy that I went. Thank you, Portland <3

I'm here, but not quite here yet, if you know what I mean. My head's still a mess, and I get tired at weird hours. I'm trying to convert prices into euros, even though they're already euros, and when I want to call somebody, I try to figure out the time, even though we're in the same time zone now. Leaving Portland was hard, I cried more than once. Now I'm sort of in denial about it; I refuse to let myself think about it. I'm here, but I don't wanna acknowledge that fact. I start thinking about Portland, and I feel like I could catch a bus and a MAX downtown anytime, and remembering that I can't do that right now, is too much. I'm still more in Portland than I am here.

Slowly getting on my feet... I'll get back to you :)

-i

Slow Motion

I went to the movies tonight. I can't help but float after I've seen a movie that somehow moves me, touches me, impresses me, inspires me. I can't help but to get lost inside my own worlds, various places my mind has created over the years, and feel like I'm in a world that's full of magic. 

Because I am. 

I feel like I have to write now. But at the same time I'm afraid of ruining the perfect images in my head if I were to write them down. The lack of confidence in myself is sometimes overwhelming, and something I have to learn to deal with. 

I'll write.  

Naked Truth

A Finnish blogger wrote about how it's ridiculous, the way people criticize each other nowadays. She then posted a picture of herself with no make up on, completely natural. A bold move in today's world, when what's on the outside seems to matter the most. 

Eräs suomalainen bloggaaja kirjoitti siitä, miten naurettavaa on se, kuinka ihmiset kritisoivat toisiaan nykyään. Hän postasi kuvan itsestään ilman mitään meikkiä, täysin luonnollisena. Rohkea veto nykymaailmassa, missä ulkonäöllä on se suurin merkitys. 

You will find her blog post/ löydät kyseisen postauksen

HERE!

It really is appalling how some people choose not to get to know somebody based on the way they look. They are missing out on possibly amazing friendships and other relationships for something as fading as appearances. Really, think about it. Think about your friends and family members. They are not all super models, they do not all have the perfect athletic bodies nor the set of white, straight teeth, shiny hair or sense of humor, but they're still there, in your life. True, one cannot choose their own family members, but abandoning them isn't the option either, when you love them. So why should other people be any different? 

On oikeasti järkyttävää, miten jotkut valitsee tuttavansa ulkonäön perusteella. Sillä tavalla voi missata monta mahdollisesti mahtavaa ystävyyssuhdetta, tai muita ihmissuhteita. Pelkän ulkonäön takia! Ajattelepa nyt kunnolla... ajattele omia perheenjäseniäsi ja ystäviäsi. Ei ne kaikki ole supermalleja, ei niillä kaikilla ole täydellistä, urheilullista kroppaa, tai suoria valkoisia hampaita, kiiltävää tukkaa tai huumorintajua. Mutta silti ne on osa sun elämää. Tottahan se on, ettei omaa perhettään voi valita, mutta ei niitä nyt hylätäkään, koska tietenkin omaa perhettään rakastaa. Miksi muut ihmiset ois mitenkään poikkeus?

This is me, without any make-up, and my hair's messy and not brushed after holding it up on a bun. Dark circles around my eyes, shiny skin after applying lotion. Eye-brows that need plugging. This picture has not been photo shopped at all, and it was taken with my iPhone. 

Tässä olen minä, ilman yhtään meikkiä, tukka sotkuisena ja harjaamattomana. Tummat silmänaluset, kiiltävä iho rasvaamisen jäljiltä, kulmakarvat, jotka kaipaavat nyppimistä. Tätä kuvaa ei ole käsitelty ollenkaan, ja se on otettu iPhonellani. 

I hope that reading the post linked above (and this one) will encourage all of you to look a little deeper. And ATTENTION TO ALL THE BLOGGERS OUT THERE! Here comes a challenge: Take a picture of yourself all natural, and post the Naked Truth! Let it spread!!!

Toivottavasti yllä linkitetty postaus (ja tämä) rohkaisee kaikkia katsomaan vähän syvemmälle. Ja HUOMIO KAIKKI BLOGGAAJAT! Tässä tulee haaste: Ota kuva itsestäsi täysin luonnollisen näköisenä, ja postaa Naked Truth! Annetaan tämän levitä!!!

Black Friday

To be honest, I was a little disappointed. I went to a mall downtown, and was expecting to have to elbow my way to the stores, but it was nothing like that. Sure, the mall was busy, but... you know. It was just busy. Not once did I have to stand in line or anything. I guess I should have gone to a Walmart, Target, Kohl's or something, to get the real Black Friday experience. But, due to my foot injury, I didn't want to go anywhere too far and walk more than necessary. 

I didn't spend too much time shopping, but still got myself something nice... :)

Royal blue gardigan from H&M, $15,00. This was on sale, original price $39,95. I love the color, and this is actually my first piece of clothing that is royal blue. Warm and comfy! :)

And the back of it is different material! I like this detail :)

Hello Kitty -hat from Forever 21, $9,80. Not on sale, but once I saw it, I knew it belonged to me! This is just so random and awesome, I had to get it! Absolutely in love with this hat! <3

Comb-in Hair Color from Fuego (at Pioneer Place), $3,80. This is something I'll try on tomorrow ;) 

In case you're not aware of it, but Oregonians put bacon in e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g! Bacon gum balls from Fuego,  $4,94.  And these are not for me, btw :D

I'll be doing some more shopping tomorrow! Now I'm about to go and fix myself dinner from Thanksgiving left overs... Turkey wrapped up in -what else than- bacon. Oregon's so weird :) Maybe that's why I fit in so well. 

-i

Poor me!

I've been pretty busy! Working - had my last day yesterday! :'( -, seeing friends, getting rushed to the ER, you know, every-day stuff. Don't worry, I just had to get a wood chip outta my foot. I'll be a slow shopper in the Black Friday MADNESS tomorrow!! I might never get to experience it again so of course I wanna go, even though I'm limping, and I have to wear this hospital shoe on my right foot... But oh well, Portland's weird, I can wear whatever and still not stand out. 

I don't have any special shopping plans for tomorrow, but I might do a post about all my bargains if I find the time! :) Sorry I've been MIA for so long!

Have a wonderful Black Friday everybody, and try not to fall down in the crowd...

Last minute SHOPPING

It's time to burn the cash I have, for I only have 11 days left. 

Today's catch:

Shirt from Ross, $9,99. I love the lace in the back! 

Bag from Ross, $21,99. This fits a laptop and a bunch of other stuff, too. It'll come in handy when I fly out!! Notice the two pins on the top left :) They're both from Powell's book store, $1,50 each.

I sold my large print-edition of The Help to Powell's and purchased this regular print edition. $10,95 minus store credit $6,00 for selling books! This is seriously one of the greatest books ever written. 

That was all the shopping today... gotta save my bucks for sales ;) looking forward to Black Friday!!

Today at work we had a Woodstock-theme, so we got to dress up as hippies. That was so much fun!

Yup, that theme was right up on my alley... 

Love, peace and chicken grease my friends! <3 Hahahaha!

PDX-VA-PDX

Wow... November has been slow when it comes to blogging! Sorry! Oh my goodness... Where to start? 

Well, this past weekend I got to spend in Virginia, one of my favorite places on Earth, with my wonderful friends and their families. I flew to D.C on Friday and back to PDX on Monday. I had a blast! I got to see pretty much everyone I wanted to see (except for a couple of friends who didn't live close by) and we were busy doing stuff the entire weekend! Wine tasting, hiking... I wish I could still be there :) But I'm loving Portland, and going to enjoy my remaining two weeks. 

Beautiful VA <3

Thank you all in VA!!! I'll miss you! 

Keeping it real, weird and weirder.

I believe I'm not the only one who thinks it's so friggin' unfair how time flies when you're having a good time.

I have only 3 more weeks left until I have to return to Finland. 

My time here in Portland has been amazing. I've got a ton of new friends, new experiences, new perspectives, new memories... I believed from the very beginning this would be an experience of a life time, but never did I think this whole thing would have such a huge effect on me. I knew I would come back to Finland so much richer than what I was when I left, but there's something I didn't expect.

I didn't expect to find myself in Portland. 

In Portland you can be whatever and whoever you want to be, and no one will say s**t about it. Be a hipster, be a hippie, be a nerd, a jerk, an artist, weirdo... You'll fit in. You have to be very, very strange to stand out here, and it's only uncool if you try too much to be something you're truly not.

To Thine Own Self Be True. 

I will be facing a big challenge in Finland. Trying to maintain my personality the way it really is, and not falling back into my old ways, when I was the quiet one in the crowd, afraid of big changes and afraid to stand out too much. That's NOT ME! If you ever see me starting to follow my old patterns, feel free to give me a good ol' slap in the face. 

"People are gonna tell you who you are your whole life. You just gotta punch back and say: 'No, this is who I am'. You want people looking at you differently, make them." 

- A quote from "Once Upon A Time".

I want to be me from now on. 

Keeping Portland Weird while I'm here,

-i

<3

Suddenly the bridge was there and... we crossed it.

Today we continued our road trip and headed further south, through the Redwoods!

Pictures don't do justice, you gotta see these yourself!!

And then... one of my dreams came true and I finally got to visit a city I've alwaysalwaysalways wanted to visit. It's ridiculous how many times I've had actual dreams about it... 

San Francisco, I made it!

Baker Beach

Cali !

Today I crossed the state-line between Oregon and California.

I entered into my 18th state.

Sunny California my a**, lol! 

It's been a gloomy and grey, rainy day, but we've had a lot of fun! We've been driving for about 8 hours today, and tomorrow we're driving another 6,5 hours. But it'll be worth it. Because tomorrow I will finally get to cross a bridge I've dreamed of crossing ever since I can remember. The Golden Gate Bridge. San Francisco awaits!!

Here's more pics from today:

California, here we come, with new shades and everything!

Hollaaa! :)

I'm almost on my way downtown, I just have to wait for the dryer to finish up. 

It's RAINING, surprise surprise, and I'll probably be wet by the time I get to Pioneer Square. Oh well, this is Portlandia. Rain is a part of it. 

I hope you've all had a great weekend so far; mine has been the most relaxing in two months. Haven't done much anything :) Sometimes it's good to just space out. 

Yesterday's catch! I happened to find the sale racks at Forever 21, and purchased the sunglasses for $3,80 and the earrings for $2,99. 

It'd better be sunny in California so I can wear my new sunglasses! Oh, if I haven't mentioned, I'm leaving for California on Tuesday!!! STOKED! And I'm going with my family! My mom and brother are flying in tomorrow :) So happy!

Gotta go, lovelies. Take care<3

Maybe not a professional, but on my way!

When does one have a right to call themselves a writer?

I'm not a published writer, but I still think of myself as a writer. 

Whenever I watch movies, I can't help but think of how I would write some particular scene. I'm not even kidding, I do it all the time, and it's actually quite entertaining. 

I feel like I think like a writer does. 

When I read a book, I fold the pages that have chapters/sentences/phrases/dialogues/monologues/anything that I feel like will be useful to me later. I'm not talking about copying someone else's work, because that's about as unethical as you can get, but learning from the people who have already achieved the goal that I've set for myself: they've published a book. 

Recently I bought a notebook from Powell's (you can find a pic on the post 'I Heart Powell's') and I've turned it into a planning-book for the project that I've been working on for the past few years. That's me, organizing my thoughts on paper for the first time. I am absolutely stoked and so excited to see what will become of it. So far I've explained the plot in about 10 pages, and I'm not finished yet. 

And this is me, a person who becomes overjoyed about a notebook.

Guess I am a writer :)

Let's get real?

I honestly thought I would be blogging more here, but as you can see, I haven't. I am truly sorry for that. Finding the time to blog, write and read is very difficult, and I'm going to be honest when I tell you that I probably won't be back to regular blogging until I get back to Finland. I would love to be able to blog more, and not only about my life here, but of various subjects. The thing is, I only have about one month and a week left. In the end, it's not a lot, and I intent to take the most of it. If you've been reading my blog long enough, I'm sure you understand :)

Around New Year's I'll have my 2-year Blog Anniversary. I'm thinking of doing something special. Maybe a contest or something. Gotta figure that out! We still have some time before that, and for the time being, I would love to hear from you guys behind the screen. How am I doing? Besides the lack of posts recently. You love my blog? Love hating it? Why do you read it and what makes it worth while? Please leave comments or send me an email (address found on the right with other gadgets.) Feel free to be anonymous; I know some people aren't comfortable with using any names on the internet. Thank you :)

Oh, and I'm working on a video post. Absolutely no promises on when it'll come out or anything, but I'm working on it. 

Take care out there!!!<3

-i

Good things come in pink boxes

Today was a day when I woke up and cried. It was time for my room mate to go back to Germany. Her flight left from Portland at 7 am, and suddenly I was alone. With my host(mom) out of town, I have the house all to myself, and it's weird.
Now only my stuff is taking space by the sink in the bathroom. They're neatly organized on my side. The other side is empty. Maybe I should spread my things more.

Yesterday we had a little going-away party for S. We went out to dinner and after that a few of us gathered at our house for a sugar-filled after party.

We ordered a Party Platter from Voodoo Doughnuts. This is so funny... I still have left overs. 

We watched a movie called Idiocracy, I'd never heard about it before, but it was hilarious!
After our guests left, S gave me a present.

I'd been admiring this painting at the Made in Oregon -store, and told S that I would buy it if I had the money at the end of my trip. And now she got it for me. I love it!!!! Thank you, S <33

Something's definitely missing now that she's not here anymore. But today wasn't a goodbye, it was just a see-you-later.
Way later, though :/
Fortunately, there are cheap flights from Finland to Germany.

outfits

I've promised to do more outfit-posts, so here's my first official one :) You've seen my outfits in a lot of previous posts, but now the focus will only be in my clothes, lol. 

The quality of the pictures is not the best, but I think they fulfill their purpose. 

Jeans from Target / $29,99, Striped t-shirt from Target / $12,99, Black buttoned jacket/shirt  (very light material and not warm) from T.J. Maxx / $10,00, Scarf from Forever 21 / $9,99, Guess Bag from JFK Airport Guess -store, $108,00.  

The bag, scarf and the jacket/shirt are the same than on the pic above. Jeans are the same, but in black. Shirt from somewhere Finland, Shoes from Ross / $20,00.  

Not the most awesome of outfit posts. My style is pretty simple. I prefer black, but lately have been wearing more colors, even though these pictures won't prove that. I obviously don't have as much clothes with me here than what I have back in Finland, so maybe from now on I'll post from there when it comes to my outfits ;) Had fun with this one either way.

I Heart Powell's

I went to Powell's yesterday, and... well, I went crazy. People really shouldn't let me go into book stores. So it's not my fault. 

I've seen the movie 'Nights in Rodanthe' and now wanted to read the book.  I bet I'll cry... 

I don't go crazy about just books... notebooks, too. I've wanted to have this ever since I first saw it a few weeks ago, and now finally bought it!!

I actually find blank pages very inspiring. Anything's possible when there's no ink on them :)

I'm a good Zombie :)

Half of my trip is over. 

I haven't slept in 6 weeks, and I won't sleep in another 6 weeks. I'll sleep when I go back to Finland. You know how you get so tired at some point and everything just starts being funny? And how after that comes the stupid-mode, when you don't know which way is up and which way is down? I've been there. And now I'm in the third phase. 

The zombie phase. 

And at the same time, I'm ridiculously happy :)

This weekend I got to explore Washington State.

Just so you won't be bored with all the nature pics!

Deception Pass

I love how there's drift wood at the beaches in Washington. 

Back to rainy Portland :)

I also got to do some driving for the first time since I arrived here! I love to drive. I drove us up to Olympia from Portland, and later on back to Olympia from Whidbey Island. When we passed Seattle, it was dark and raining, but we had a clear view of the city's beautiful silhouette. I felt like I was on top of the world <3

Hope you all had a great weekend, and all of you here at the Pacific Northwest, don't let the rain bother you :) I was soaking wet when I got home today. I hope my shoes are dry tomorrow!

my passion for fashion

Both Jeans: Target, $29,99 a piece.

Today I bought myself two new pairs of jeans. I'm madly in love with the green ones. I'm already visioning myself wearing them with a snuggly woolen sweater, boots, with my hair up, wearing my glasses and lipstick. I'm weird that way. When I get a new piece of clothing, I instantly imagine myself wearing it in a dozen different ways. I love doing that. 

I don't even feel bad about spending $60 on jeans, because they're something I always need. I needed them today, and now that I have them, I'm super happy and I won't have to buy jeans again in a long time. Shopping for jeans is the worst. 

Also, my nails got a new layer of black polish today. 

My room mate told me I look like Snow White with my new dark hair and red lips. 

So that's Snow White and Maggie Gyllenhaal in just two days. 

Gotta love the compliments :) 

I love how I've gained so much more self confidence in just 5 weeks. 

I can only hope I'll gain enough to keep this going after leaving this place.  

The new (old) me

Hi :)

It's been a while again, sorry. Like I said before, my life here is extremely active and busy. Always on the move. But this weekend has been surprisingly low key. We haven't even left the Portland area. Weird. And we've (oh, by we I mean me and my roomie!) been tired. Today, on the train back home, I told her: "It's been five weeks and finally we're tired." We're both so sleep deprived it's insane. 

That's what you get when you just have to see and do as much as possible.

So, I finally got my hair done yesterday! And let me tell you, it is UH-MAZING! 

I am so in love with my hair. I can't even tell you how much I love it. 

Also, got the red lipstick today. Told you I would. 

Someone told me I look like Maggie Gyllenhaal in this picture. Do you see it? I don't :(

I was talking about my style with a friend, and when I told her I was painting my finger nails black and was going to get a red lipstick, she said it was cool that I was getting a new style. I told here that it's not new, it's just me, but when I do it in Finland, people think I'm being weird. She suggested that I just stop caring. I said I will. And since I can't stay here, I'm bringing Portland with me.